Through the darkness I found love and light. Throughout my lifetime I have experienced many transitions that I not only had myself to influence the actions and steps I took through it, but I also had influence from those around me, from my parents, and sisters, to my friends. As life continued to move forward and the transitions came and went. I continued forward on the path, laid before me, until I came to a point where the help I was giving myself and receiving from others was no longer beneficial. Further and further into this pivotal season, of mental health, with no understanding of what was happening to me, or the skills needed to overcome, panic set in that created more darker moments increased with anxiety and panic attacks. At this point, my life became unpredictable. I was running away from myself because I didn’t understand what and why this was happening to me. My work life was declining, my relationships were depleting, and I no longer was the Asia everyone knew. I remember amid the later anxiety and panic attacks a calm but stern voice, in my head, speaking “I don’t want to experience this anymore.”. That is when I decided to finally take back control by gaining understanding of what I was experiencing. During this phase of the transition, I understood that our emotions, traumas, experiences, and thoughts all influence how one lives their life. It was through that understanding that I gained the knowledge and power to unlock the skill sets, I already possessed, to help myself step through the door of this transitional period in my life. This journey has taught me that living a beautiful life isn’t just about healing, but rather healing and understanding how one responds/reacts to stimuli from the outside world. As one takes control, rather than letting their body and emotions lead, a new life starts to be laid in front of you.